WW um week something. I can't keep up.

Aaagggh Fuuuuck. I screwed up big time this week. Gained about 700g. I'm now 63.9kg. Shiteful. Well you get what you put into it. 

In other news, I am going to cancel my ww membership. I'll be sad to lose etools (cos they work quite well). But I can't really afford to keep paying out the money for something I'm using just to track and create recipes. I can do that at home. I just need to be weekly diligent again. Actually I just need to be diligent again anyway. I wonder why I'm finding it so hard to stay healthy at the moment? I'm hoping this time I really am back on track. I just have to learn to be good again.

I've been baking like crazy recently. I've made bread and muffins, pumpkin soup and fruit salad. Although, discovered that part of my blender is missing and I need to buy another one... again (this is about the 5th). I'm rather pissed off about that. Actually I'm really incredibly pissed off that a piece went missing. If I have to buy a blender every time I make hummus or pumpkin soup, it turns into very expensive soup.

Anyhow I should go get ready for work. I want to be there early this morning (if I make up 1.5 hours, I can take off Friday afternoon - and I REALLY want that).

♥

YAY!

I just got a message from a friend from High School on my facebook. She told me how amazing I look and wanted to know how I did it (I said weight watchers and exercise). The last time she saw me I was about 86kg and had been that for a long time. So that was really nice! I've lost a LOT of weight since then... 18kg I think? Oh god I can't do maths of a morning.

How nicely motivating! YAY

So far so good

I keep reading on the forums that people seem to stick to this eating way for up to 3 weeks before going spastic and wanting to eat lots of norty foods. I really don't see that with me. At the moment I am having trouble even eating the daily points and I'm not depriving myself of anything. I have a fruit box or rice crackers or a freddo for snackies. So I don't feel like I'm missing out of a thing.

I am actually having the problem where I feel really hungry up until lunch time and then after I have lunch I'm not interested in eating anything else. I ended up eating my points mostly because I was feeling sick after the gym and so I forced myself to eat but I wasn't hungry.

I've been really good with my points since Monday. I haven't blown my budget once. I've even gone back to the gym since I now can last almost a full class (stupid cold). If I don't see a loss this week then I know to be completely disappointed because I've tried really hard and I certainly have no plans to blow it on the weekend.

I've found it easier to plan out my whole day of eating with 1-2 points spare so I know what I can eat and if I feel like some impulse food buy then I can get something small. *laughs* usually a Freddo or an orange fruit box. Seriously, if there is no loss, I might actually feel disheartened this week. I'm not interested in going out there anymore and killing myself with heaps of exercise.

*fingers crossed for weigh in on Monday*

Weightloss Uno

Hi There,
No idea of anyone else but my will be reading this. For the moment it's just for me. I'll put this as my link on weight watchers and see if anyone actually checks it out.

So me... I guess I'll start with Stats since that is what people on weight watchers seem to like to do.

Height: 1.66m
Current Weight: 75kg
Goal Weight: 63kg

So that's a total loss of 12kg. I guess what I want my blog to be is a journal. I was looking on the message boards on the online weight watchers site and it made me feel like crap. Seriously CRAP! Some of the people on there seem to have a really bad relationship with food. They talk about their break out food moments as 'bad over-indulgence' - just adding to their self hate maybe? I'm as obsessive as the next person but I know that being obsessive isn't going to help ME lose weight. i think I might avoid the message boards for now... yep I make that decision after my introductory post *laughs*. Hmmm typing about this makes me feel better - more positive.

I sat down today and wrote about my goals. Rewards I guess, although I already like rewarding myself for just being me - how dorky hey. Daily stuff, I just like to put on some fragrance oil like perfume or rub moisturiser into my eczema knowing I'm giving it a good dose of loving... hmmm anyhow my short term goals are:

74kg - those shoes from Ultralux that I said I would buy at 75kg (yep I've lost 2kg on my own).
72kg - book for my motorbike license
70kg - dye my hair red.

I'm seriously considering when I reach something fabulous (something I haven't been since I was 12 - and no it isn't my goal weight but 2 kg heavier). I think I will reward myself with a f***ing expensive tattoo.

Currently, things I need to work on - exercise! I've stopped exercising because of this cold I've had for 3 weeks and I feel awful for it, but I just need to get better first. Maybe I can go for a small walk tonight instead.

Another thing I'm going to have to watch is my snacking. I've been tracking online for 2 days now and I really spend a lot of my points on snacks. So even though I'm eating healthy snacks, I need to find some point free snacks to eat.

I think the biggest challenge for me is going to be a) Exercise b) being creative with the meals that I make. I have to allow for my vegetarian, gluten-free, zucchini hating diet as well as Luke's dislike of tomato. So while I might have pasta, I'm going to have to figure out a way to feed him too. Maybe we need to have separate cooking nights!? I'm not worried about it though. So maybe my exercise aims for this week should be:

Thursday morning walk and Friday night gym. No unibar this week. Oh wells :(