Wi 14

So I weighed myself, it said no change and I didn't believe it. So I re-checked it 1 minute later and I had lost .2. So I have taken the loss but I have got to stop dicking around. I go over my points every single day. I think last week I didn't go over them once. I drank so much alcohol, and I've even let chocolate appear (almost daily) into my diet - how disgusting.

Today is supposed to be the first day of ttotm. I always experience a fantastic loss on the Monday of next week. So if I pull my finger out of my butt and actually follow my 2o points - yes 20 points! I have heaps of food!!! So STOP DICKING AROUND I'm paying for this. With spare cash that I don't have now that I am getting married! This is absolutely ridiculous. I have 4.1kg until goal. I should have been there in 14 weeks.

So the hurdles I have for this week are:

• sticking to my points (I am getting my tattoo goal next week - hell yeah)
• My engagement party
• Christmas with the parentals on Saturday
• Xmas morning tea this morning - I don't have to eat any of the food! I'll take my own that I can control. (FAILED FAILED FAILED - but can eat salad for dinner *sigh*)
  

This week is all about control. I'm going to have to control myself like nothing else. I have to remember that walking 2 hours every day does not constitute more food everyday.

If I'm not at 66kg kg next week. Then I'm going to be one cranky Aren who'll need a good kick up the arse!